My Testimony
When I came to the end of myself, that is where Jesus met me!
I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears
— Psalms 34:4 ESV
36 years walking in the world
Pride was a stronghold in my life before Christ. I wanted to live a life in accordance to spiritual values, but I followed New Age, Hinduism and various other forms of spiritual guidance. All these only led me to fail. Because when you rely on your own strength, intelligence and needs, you eventually learn that there isn't any real joy, peace or anchoring in holiness there. I was left empty, alone and so excruciatingly sad.
My heart wanted to love and be fair to everyone. Empathy was a high moral foundation
I led with my heart. I sacrificed my own needs to give and provide, i looked for and found the good in everyone instead of theor mistakes. And contrastingly, i also followed a value system based on spiritual & new age foundations, which encouraged true self authenticity. Yet, both these things failed me. I couldn't understand how following your heart, the center of love, could be interpreted with such cruelty andselfishness in return. I was always misunderstood and tossed aside. This led me to countless self help and self analysis to understand why I wasn't ever good enough. This cycle continuously repeated itself. Always leading to the same pit of loneliness, pain and low self worth.
When I called out to God.. i didn't ask Jesus. But He was who answered me & saved me
In my desperation at the end of my self, and on the eve of my 36th birthday, I prayed a prayer of surrender to God. “I don't know if you are real, but i can't do this anymore. I have tried to live life with love, understanding, and empathy, but no one understands me. My heart is in so much pain. I am aching everyday. I can't do this anymore. I need you to take over. I need you to make the decisions, to choose the people around me, and to lead me in life. I can't do it anymore. I am a failure”
The next day, Jesus met me. He came to me. It was the most powerful spiritual experience i have ever encountered. My cousin prayed with me and I gave my life to Jesus. I recieved the Holy Spirit immediately afterwards and my whole life radically changed. Jesus revealed the supernatural realm, His covenant with me, the true nature of our hearts, our redemption in Him, our new life in Him, our new body through Him, our new authority and my inheritance because I am now
a Child of God through His Grace and my Faith.
Ministry came easily after knowing the strength , peace, and love we have in Christ.
My battlefield has always been in the destiny God created for me - as a mother and wife. Through my trials, Jesus has opened my eyes to see the beauty of the foundation of motherhood and a wife. And how this impacts our family -our children and our husband. As a mother and wife your ministry is your family and children. We are stewards of our family. We must release this to our savior Jesus and allow Him to work through us to love and direct our children throughout our journey.
God says "All your children shall be taught by the Lord, and great shall be the peace of your children."
Isaiah 53:13
My goal as a faith-led Post partum Doula is to realign YOU in accordance to scripture and the promises Jesus has laid down for you. Are you ready to put on the full Armour of God and take your place in Christ to become the mother God has intended you to be?